Fluffy Ann

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Number Eighty

"Sometimes I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear,
And I can't help but ask myself how much
I let the fear take the wheel and steer.
It's driven me before; it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal.
Lately, I'm beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel.

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there,
I'll be there

So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive?

It's driven me before; it seems to be the way
That everyone else get around.
Lately, I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself, my light is found.

Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there,
I'll be there"

(Incubus, "Drive")

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Number Seventy-nine

Have you ever been really worried about something and then realized that there was nothing to worry about? Or that there were alot more important things to worry about? That just happened to me. I just wanted to share my relief. I think I have been experiencing metanoia as of late. Metanoia is New Testament Greek for turning of the mind or redemption.

And especially for A and G: I love you guys. Thanks so much for watching out for me and loving me.

"Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift!" 2 Corinthians 9:15

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Number Seventy-eight

"See the stone set in your eyes,
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you
With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you
With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised,
She's got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
With or without you"

(U2, "With or without You")

Number Seventy-seven

Ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! My public demands me. This post is only for April, faithful reader of my blog. On that note, I have some lines for you, love: "Prima donna, first lady of the stage, your devotees are on their knees to implore you! Can you bow out when they're shouting your name? Think of how they all adore you! Prima donna, enchant us once again! Think of your muse . . . And of the queues round the theatre! Can you deny us the triumph in store? Sing, prima donna, once more!"

Only for you, April, would I work on a blog post when I should be reading for Psychology of Women. You're just so hard to resist!! Anyhoo, last night I cooked Chinese for a good friend, who seemed to like it. He has no idea that was the first time I have ever cooked Chinese. :D Ha ha! The things you can get away with!

"Thinkin bout taking some time
Thinkin about leavin soon
I got some things I can't tell anyone
I got some things I just can't say
They're the kinda things that no one knows about
Just need somebody to talk to me
I'm thinkin about leaving tomorrow
I'm thinkin about being on my own [...]
Thinkin about getting out
Thinkin about getting out..."

(Counting Crows, "Speedway")

Happy Belated Birthday to Amy Holland!!!! Hope you had fun in Alaska!! Hope your marathon went well!!

"Welcome to the goldrush.
Wait 'til after dark.
Open up the ceiling, we'll be kneeling, we'll be breathing on a spark.
Flying kites at midnight,
Such a dizzy height.
Up above the small town, pulling moonlight down and wearing it skin tight."

(Over the Rhine, "The Seashore")

Friday, June 24, 2005

Number Seventy-six

"What am I to you?
Tell me darling true.
To me you are the sea,
Vast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue."

(Norah Jones)

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Number Seventy-five

Who in the world decided it would be interesting for an elevator to announce the floor it was on when it got there? The only thing "interesting" about it is that it scares the piss out of you if you're not expecting it. To experience this sensation, go to the English wing of Smith Hall.

"This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell
We’d be held."

(Natalie Grant, "Held")

Friday, June 17, 2005

Number Seventy-four

"What a beautiful piece of heartache
this has all turned out to be.
Lord knows we've learned the hard way
all about healthy apathy.
And I use these words pretty loosely.
There's so much more to life than words.

There is a me you would not recognize, dear.
Call it the shadow of myself.
And if the music starts before I get there,
dance without me.
You dance so gracefully.
I really think I'll be o.k.
They've taken their toll these latter days.

Nothin' like sleepin' on a bed of nails.
Nothin' much here but our broken dreams.
Ah, but baby if all else fails,
nothin' is ever quite what it seems.
And I'm dyin' inside to leave you with more than just cliches.

There is a me you would not recognize, dear.
Call it the shadow of myself.
And if the music starts before I get there
dance without me.
You dance so gracefully.
I really think I'll be o.k.
They've taken their toll these latter days.

But tell them it's real.
Tell them it's really real.
I just don't have much left to say.
They've taken their toll these latter days.
They've taken their toll these latter days."

("Latter Days," words and music Detweiler, Over the Rhine)


My beloved cat Fudgie died today.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Number Seventy-three

"Go down easy babe.
Go down slow.
Take all the time you need.
We've no place else to go.

Gonna put on my favorite dress.
Put my hair up too.
Take me North, South, East or West.
I guess I'll leave it up to you.

You threw a noose around my shadow.
Got me into all this mess.
I would have dove in head first anyway
for less, for a whole lot less.

Go down easy babe.
Go down slow.
Take all the time you need.
We've no place else to go.

Say farewell to the confines of my own back yard.
Weeds growin' 'round the flowers.
Sometimes the only way to break the curse
is to leave it all behind.

Find the slow curve of a back road,
one hand on the wheel.
Drive till I remember how it feels.
So this is how it feels. Oh.

Go down easy babe.
Go down slow.
If there's anything better than this
I'd like to know."

("Go Down Easy," Detweiler and Bergquist)

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Number Seventy-two

"Soon we must all face the choice between what's right and what is easy." (Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire)

Friday, June 10, 2005

Number Seventy-one

Quotes for the day:

"There's always a good time to work on my zipper skills."
"My jaw hurts, but not for the right reasons." (me)

"I think I'm great; so I should reproduce." (Rachel Wisenbaker)

"I've got plenty of ego; I want some fun." (Grant Johnson)

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Number Seventy

Suggested Reading: Helene Cixous, "The Laugh of the Medusa"

"Let us assume that the clitoris exists to give us pleasure, and that pleasure provides the spur to seek sex-- that without the promise of great reward we'd be content to stay home and catch up on our flossing. Then we must revisit the matter of disappointment, the frequency with which the clitoris fails us. Why do we have to work much harder for our finale than men do? The clitoris is an idiot savant: it can be so brilliant, and so stupid." (Natalie Angier, Woman: An Intimate Geography)

"Who would want a shotgun when you can have a semiautomatic?" (Angier in reference to the clitoris, penis, and multiple orgasms)